Oh, sure — I don’t mind articulating the general form of the ‘hauntedness’. I’ve talked to a handful of people who read the piece and they could all dredge up stories of scrub-like behaviour from their past. Some of it is fairly surprising, too, like outwardly it looks like they’ve had some success, but internally they thought they could have done even better if they hadn’t placed some arbitrary constraint on themselves.
I think having a label for a concept makes that concept more legible, hence the hauntedness.